Papadom ! The touched movie i've ever watched .

I've having my great time watching Papadom last night. Astro Prima channel 105 at 10pm. 

Could a loving husband fulfill his late wife's wishes? This movie tells a tale of Saadom who is a successful Nasi Kandar businessman in Pulau Pinang. His wife's last wish before passing away is for him to take good care of their daughter Mia. From a busy businessman who is infatuated on his Nasi Kandar business, Saadom changes into a dependable father who is very much focused on his daughter's life. As Mia, grows up she gets a bit annoyed with her father's endless care and devotion towards her which at times seem too much to handle. A huge dilemma arises as Mia is all grown up and ready for University life. Saadom then panics as he has no idea how to fulfill his late wife's wishes while she's away. 

What I loved most:the sad part when saadom expresses his feeling towards his daughter miasara at the peak of the movie

What I really hated: Absolutely nothing.





A must watch movie! By far the best movie ever  made by Afdlin Shauki. Simply the best. Unlike Los And Faun, which is kinda lame. Other movies like Buli, n Buli Balik, Cuci are still good though. But this one is simply the best by Afdlin. KUDOS!! :D 

Spend your times for these movies. Have lots of fun :D

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Life as we know it -.-

I almost feel 9 again. Listening to Fallout Boy while playing solitaire. Thinking of who and where I’ll be in 10 years time. What kind of person will I morph into. What kind of music I’ll be listening to then. What kind of people and personalities I’ll surround myself with. What kind of boys I’ll be dating. What I’ll do as a career. What’ll be my last purpose on this earth.

I can say in that area, I haven’t changed too much. I still do think about all the things I have thought about since I was 9. But now, I have filled in the blanks with sheer dreams. I may still not know exactly what I want to do but at least I have a blurry vision of what I think will make me happy and that is certainly the only thing I’m sure I want to be.

So while I listen to Fallout Boy again but this time at the age of 15, I think back to the times I was wondering where I wanted to be and now knowing I just want simplicity makes me feel a little content with the way my life is rolling on.

 I want to make my family proud and make the tears, sweat and hard work worth it. I’ll make something out of myself people will die to meet. I’ll make myself something bigger than my dreams. I’ll do this all with a smile on my face. Okay let’s be realistic. Times will get hard and maybe I won’t have a smile on my face forever, but I vow to be content and grateful for everything that’ll ever happen. Things will be worth it. Things will be fine.

As for my last purpose on earth, I want to move people with how I am. I want to be remembered as a wonderful person. Not necessarily to a lot of people but moving even one person or touching someone’s heart will make my life done. It’ll complete me. It’ll give me a sense of confidence to go on in the afterlife. I may sound crazy but the feeling I get when someone really remembers me as something big that ever happened in their life, it just makes me feel so indescribable. It’ll be enough to give me the strength to go through heaven and hell. Simple.

LOVES!

Love To Me,

is the words of wisdom from My Dad,
is the love and endless support from My Mom,
is the bravery to go through anything for me from Kak No,
is the care and affection that isnt showed by Kak Yah,
is the ammount of changes, emotions and crazy things i go through with Judin,
is the waking up to her smile when we wanna go out from Piqah,
is the long, painful laughter made by Aini,
is the webcam moments, pep talks, sudden meet-ups with Azlina,
is the understanding and fun i get from Aiffa,
is the moments of truths with Aiman,
is the funny msn chats, sudden drunk calls from Am,
is the caring, worried words and nice long chats with Sapeq,
is the little sister feeling i get when i hang out with Nana,
is the easy forgiveness and forgetness of Azlan,
is the comfortable feeling when we talk about anything with Syarif,
is the sharing and catching up i do once in awhile with Siobhann,
is the silent walks and funny facials from Yakfa,
is how i constantly have to stop everyone from making fun of Suha,
is the painfully honest words of truth from Azri,
is making stupid sex jokes with Riduan.

"Love comes in many ways and is shared in many ways.

Some obvious, some absolutely hard to see.

Some come all of a sudden in a surprise.

Some were carved from long lost best-friends.

Some loves are easly clicked, some had to be fought for.

Basicly, love is what keeps us all alive and breathing.

I love love, therefore i will never give up on LOVE."

- Yours Truly -

TWAT ;D

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CONNECTING -.-

Everything i write on my blog is important to me. I know everyone has gone through quite a number of things i have been through and some maybe more. So, i, Nur Saidatul Sakinah, want to connect with YOU!

Please speak and share your stories. Tell me your name or not, i just want you to know, you aren't alone.

My e-mail is;

sweet16thwannabe@yahoo.com
I use this for facebook, twitter,formspring.
Please try and follow my blog as much as you can and relate to what i write.
Thank you for your time.

LOVES!

10 Funny Facts About Kinah :)

Seeing my recent posts are about my problems, i wanna blog about no one other than ME :D Soo, here are some facts about me. Not all of them are funny but screw it. HAHA! So, tyeah. Enjoy, readers! And dont judge. Thanks!


1. I HATE INSECTS! I have massive phobias of insects. They scare the shit out of me -__-"

2. I have no real friends. I dont have that one friend i have known since forever. I always get back stabbed or things just dont work out.

3. I am afraid of the dark. DONT LAUGH! I have been scarred as aa kid. So, shh!

4. I am too honest it may come as a con to me. Its like i have no filter. I just say what i think and what i want and i dont give a damn. Its good in a sense people trust me but its bad when they get hurt -__-" whatever.

5. I dont like to bathe or brush my teeth. You may think its disgusting but i dont need to bathe alot. I dont stink. So, tyeahh. But, when i do bathe, i love it :D 

6. Im veryyy complexed. HAHA. My mind is indescribable. I can say something now and make perfect sense, then five minutes later, im a bimbo. Scary? NOPE!

7. Im very random. Like if you ever lepak with me, i'd say something dumb and out of the topic. But, its just how i am to keep things going. Y'know?

8. I act on my feelings alot and when i do, its often bad. Like, when i feel depressed, i wanna kill myself. When i'm angry, everyone is gonna get some shit. Its good in a sense im equal bad in the sense my brother hates when i do that.

9. I am obsessive. Like if i think i like something or someone. I will do absolutely EVERYTHING to get it. Its good cause i dont take no for an answer and it bad cause i irritate people. :D

10. I get jealous VERRYYYYY easily. MAB is number ONE witness to that. Then when i get jealous i get intimidated and i get angry. But luckily for my VERY HIGH self-esteem, it gets forgotten easily :D

So, thats it for now. Feel free to comment if you wanna know more about anything :D To the next time then. LOVES!

Im Exhausted And Weak :'(

I wake up and i check my phone. Maybe he called or sms while i was sleeping.
HE DIDNT

I check ur facebook profile and wonder whether you were missing me too.
YOU DIDNT

I call and see if your fine. See if u thought i needed something.
YOU DIDNT

I tell everybody how much i love him and expected the same.
HE DIDNT

I have a nice day doing nothing wrong. Thought you did the same.
YOU DIDNT

Wanted to have something to eat with him, called and ask wether he would like to.
HE DIDNT

I care for you more than i care for me.
YOU DONT

So, if i say i loved you so much and i cant bare to let you go or to even imagine you gone, what would you say?
...

L O V E ??

Listen to no one who tells you how to love.

Your love is like no other, and that is what makes it beautiful.

Your self is your divinity...

Express yourself.

-PAUL WILLIAMS DAS ENERGI

If love be rough with you,

Be rough with love.

Prick love for pricking And you beat love down.

-WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

You love somebody,

And then you don't love them anymore.

But if you really love somebody,

You always love them, don't you? 

Isn't there always

Some small part of you

That reads their horoscope in the paper everyday.

-CYNTHIA HEIMEL

Passionate love is a quenchless thirst.

-KAHLIL GIBRAN

The course of true love never did run smooth.

-WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

By moonlight many years agomy true love did I know,

and by that moon I begged her wait,

But that night did she go

So young loves heed my words

Don't squander love away

The moon is changing ever still

soon comes the light of day

-UNKNOWN WRITER

Love is a fire.

But whether it is going to warm your heart

or burn down your house, you can never tell.

-JOAN CRAWFORD

This is what i feel love is.

When someone makes you feel happy when you feel like shit,

When someone makes a stupid joke only you understand,

When someone tickles you and wrestles you down for fun,

When someone pushes you away but when you fall asleep, he hugs you,

When someone mumbles and to you, it makes perfect sense,

When someone screams and all you need to do is ask why and he keeps quiet,

When someone excepts you through shit and rain,

When you both laugh at the same time and jinx each other at the same time,

When you both share interest and differences,

When someone eats and all you do is stare,

When you do the dishes, he offers to help but end up doing a shitty job at it,

When you change naked and he doesnt even flinch,

When you keep going, keep fighting, keep loving.

Thats love.

:'(

im sorry i hurt you,
i know its all me,
if it wasnt for me, you would still have your 'misplaced friends'.
i dont get it.
i do love you, but is it worth being emo?
i cant help but to thing of the worst.
i cant breathe, i cant sleep, i cant smile.
i have no idea why your going through this.
i love you but is it worth your happiness?
but if you feel like shit, theres no need to lie.
just leave me and have your happy heart back.
you lost everything while gaining me.
i know you dont want to talk about this,
i know i ask you alot.
but your attitude says more than you do.
is it worth it?

Perfect Friends ;)

These are some pictures i cant bring myself to delete.

I love you guys.

Seems as if its useless, soo here it is.

we bought them together at lowprice in the market,but it's priceless in my heart.

This will happen when there's less healthy foods source in hostel.

I'll love u guys no matter what!! :')

I mean it.

clueless :( i love u both.

whats wrong people?

please do talk.

if its too hard to do in this mess,

lets have a little walk.

we'll laugh and cry just like old times,

we'll buy ice cream,

make this moment a crime.

notnot, ignore the ass, ignore his whines.

quit worrying, he's not worth ur time.

he doesnt deserve you, you know thats true,

and sayang, u have more people who care more about you.

baybee, im sorry im a shitty girlfriend,

i do shit things that i may cant mend.

i love you, sayang, so come talk to me,

just act as if its February fourteen.

i love you two, and i dont want to stay this way.

you both are worrying me, and im clueless what to say.

promise me one day we'll hang out and lepak,

and if they want to say anything, i wont give two fucks.

Drama And Love , Drowned By Rain :'(

Through all the pain, he was there.

Through all the drama, he never left.

Through all the shit and losers, he stands tall for me.

Through the fog and haze, he's all i see.

Through sickness, and suffer, he make me laugh.

Through all the rumours, he's the epitome of love.

Through all the lies, he made me smile,

Through all the worst times, he wins by a mile,

Through all the hate and lost, he's there waiting,

Through all the unspoken, he was there speaking,
Through the sad, the happy, the angry, i know he was in pain,
But when i was bleeding and covered in dirt, he was my rain.

Dear MAB,

Your the best thing thats ever happend to me. You are an ass sometimes, but there is no bigger ass than me. I know i hurt you, u dont need to tell me. Im sorry, baybee. We've been together for the longest of times. Atleast in my dictionary. I made you lose friends, i made u the guy with the ass of a girlfriend. I dont mean to do that. It means the world to me that you rather be with me than be with anyone else in the world. Thanks for being there when everyone gave up. Thanks for loving me before and thanks for just being you. I love you with all my heart.

That's a lot of bold :O

Bold what applies to you.

My personality:
I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have bad temper.
For the most part I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance:
I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I have braces.
I change my hair colour often.
I straighten my hair often.
I have a piercing.
I have small feet.

Relationships:
I’m in a relationship now.
I'm single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:
I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:
I listen to R&B.
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television:
I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I've seen and liked the O.C.
I've seen and liked One Tree Hill.
I've seen and liked Popular.
I've seen and liked 24.
I’ve seen and liked CSI.I've seen and liked Everwood.

Hair:
I've been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I've been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve had my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair
I’ve braided my hair.

School:
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed math.
I’ve failed science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.

Your Parents :)

Dear Father and Mother,

I know i rarely say it but i thank god everyday that i have you both as my parents. Not only are the both of you mentally challenged, psychotic and you have moodswings all the time but you guys are also always there when i need you, loving, caring, supportive, funny, cool and basicly amazing!

Mak,

You never fail to make me believe in who i am and who i portray. You give me the gift of voice and freedom and you never judge me or not trust me. You have made me a better person inside and out from the first time you ever touched me. You're like my bestfriend and my mom. When i'm sad i know you can cheer me up and when i'm happy, it's usually because of you. I know i make you sad sometimes and i have done my share of disappointing acts but you out of all people have thought me that a human being will always do wrong to finally figure out the right. I love you so much, Ma. Thank you for being the strong, loving, huggable mother i need and love. You have and will always be my idol :)

Pak,

Your wisdom and courage can shatter glass and break buildings made of steel. You give me the support and advice i need to carry on. You make me laugh when i feel like dying and kill me when i think i'm giving up. You always thought me to never obey anyone i think is wrong and you have no idea how much it has helped me. You're always the strong loving father i can go to for anything. You always give me exactly what i need. You make life feel better when it's going down in flames. You are the best father anyone could be lucky to get. You make me the strong-hearted girl i am today. I bet i couldn't go a mile if you're gone. You are the best and i can't even imagine losing you. I love you so much, Pak and even if your ego doesn't let you show it, but i know you love me too. :)

Level Of Mass Distruction

Emo, goth, indie, ska, rempit, etc etc.
Do you feel safe? Feel good?

I dont know what labels are made for?
If EVERYONE has a label, what am i?
Its weird seeing how everything has a label.

I love indie music, i love ska, i listen to Hawthorne Heights, Metallica, Pop Shuvit, Flo-Rida, Chris Brown, The Strokes, Arctic Monkeys, Rihanna, Kat Deluna, Death Cab for Cutie, Fireflight, Flyleaf, BMTH, Hujan, Escape the Fate etc etc.

Where does that put ME?
Indie? Rock? Metal? Emo?
I wear gladies, skinnies, t-shirts, converses, band t's and lots of shits.
Where does that put me?

Earlier today, my friend and i were walking in out, and we were talking about stuffs and this indie chick passed by. I asked him.

"Why arent you with an indie chick?" and he's like
"What? Why?" and im like
"Idk cause their like hot and tall and this n that." and he's like
"I date people for whats inside. I dont care about labels."

I truly fell for the perfect guy. Never once did he say anything about any label. He's a non-labelled person too. He listens to Lady Gaga, Escape the Fate, Arctic Monkeys and lots of diferent genre bands. Im in love with the way he doesn't wanna be in a label. He likes how i am the way i am.

People in labels are insecure and weirded out if they have no labels. They label themselves to set each other apart when technically they're all the same. Hiding behind names they call themselves. To me, labels are basically genres made into names that people follow. Shallow? VERY! They listen to one type of genre and stay to that genre. Weird. How can they stay to one type of genre? Isnt it boring?

Sooo, i guess this is it. Needed to let it out. Thats it. Bye!